Thats 70's concert!

So Friday was an awesome amazing day! I went to class, and throughout the day saw people, chatted with people. I GOT TO COLOR PICTURES DURING MY 2 HOUR BREAK!!! which was great fun. And then we had our dress rehearsal for our choir concerts that night. As soon as Chamber was done rehearsing my friend Jordan runs up to me and says "Mandy, do you have anything you need to do right now?" I say "no." Jordan "Can you please run to the box office and get me 2 tickets for the 6 o'clock show for my parents before they sell out?" Me "yeah, not a problem" So i take his student I.D. and head to the box office, where literally three second before i get the tickets someone gets them on-line before me. So i feel terrible, and I'm wondering how my grandma is going to come as well. See they had reserved the back of the house for the choirs so that we could watch each other perform. So i go to Dr. Evans and ask if there is anyway that I can give up my seat for one of the concerts so that my grandma can watch. He says yes, and hands me one of the shirts we were wearing for her, that was her ticket in. But i still feel terrible about not being able to get tickets for Jordan, so at home i make him a cookie to take as an apology. (we had left over cookies from cookie decorating the night before.)
Then i head over to Mike and Justins because Justin needed to chat about some stuff. Well me and Mike have to head up to the concert at the same time so we decide to carpool. When i get there i'm chatting with some other choir people and find out that the shows ARE NOT sold out, there was a glitch in the system. So i run out to the lobby and get 2 tickets for Jordan, and then my grandma bought herself a ticket.
With that Chambers heads to the choir room to sing for some people who are having a dinner. (its all the people who donated money to renovate the choir room or something)then back to performance hall for the show. Which they ended up not having the choirs sit in the back and watch because so many people wanted to see the show.
and this show was SO MUCH FUN!!! we had a great music selection and it was just a lot of fun. After the first show i go say bye to grandma and then we get ready for the second show, where the crowd was even better than the first. After that Mike says i might want to find another ride home because he is going to help the band pack up and load up. I decide to stay and help to. (i'm this weirdo who likes hard manual labor) So after we are done loading up, (and the band gives up both free t-shirts) we are headed to his car and both decide we are hungry (its like 10:30 at night and we hadn't eaten since like three...well i hadn't...i don't know how long for Mike...but he's a boy, they are always hungry) So after we realize that Little ceasers is closed and we don't want to pay for dominoes we decide to go to Betos! well as we get in the car, he can't find his card anywhere so i tell him that i've got mine, i'll just buy this time. He goes "i'll pay you back". Me "No, how many times have you and Justin fed me?" He goes "fine but this is the last time." me-"till the next time?" Mike-"...till the next time."
So we go get our Betos and then head back to his place to eat. Where i realize what time it is (it was like...11) and i say "i need to get going, i have to get up at five for work" Mike goes "mandy, you need to leave." and then he gave me a creamsicle. So i took it and went home, where Megan and Erik were. So i give them an overview of the concert and then go to bed.
after about 4 1/2 hours of sleep I get up for my 8 hour shift. Apparntly i was pretty funny. I had this glazed look on my face for about 2 hours. Around 8 is when we finally got the rush of people which forced me to wake up. And then i worked until 2. However, during my shift someone called in sick and Julie was having a really hard time finding someone to cover. So i ask what time she still needs covered. She says 7-10:30. So i said that i would come back in (i didn't have as many hours next week [i guess this week now] as i wanted/needed so i figured picking up a few more would be a good idea.) So i go home for 5 hours and instead of doing homework i watch a movie and make hats. (i have a lady paying me to make hats) then i head back to work, have fun with the after game rush and then go home and sleep. which was wonderful., because i was really really tired.
and now its Valentines, and I am honestly looking forward to a great day. I refuse to let myself be sad because i am single. I am going to be a Valentine for a bunch of other people. (i already snuck out this morning and bought candy to give to people all day. I even swung by work to give some to the people their. I think they were surprised to see me come in at 5:30 in the morning. But i'll have more candy for the night shift tonight.)

25 Simple Truths.

simple truths that i have learned. about myself and other things.

#1- we all have bad days.

#2- we all have good days.

#3- we all have blah days.

#4- how we handle said days makes the difference in how long the last.

#5- the vast majority of people really aren't drive-thru idiots. the idiots are just the ones we remember.

#6- people are basically good. don't try to tell me they are not.

#7- i quiet possibly have some of the best friends in the world. Even if your not someone i talk to on a regular basis, i really am glad to have you in my life.

#8- being farther away form my family ha made me want to talk to them more.

#9- music theory is stupid. why must it be so complicated.

#10- Nothing is ever as simple or as complicated as we want to make it.

#11- fast food is over priced.

#12- i love good conversation. I would much rather have good conversation than watch a movie anytime. Not that i don't love movies, i just love good conversation more.

#13- Good food ALWAYS goes with good conversation.

#14- going to bed early is not a bad thing.

#15- there is good and bad in EVERYTHING. So no matter what your looking for, you will always find it.

#16- sometimes it is just really hard to find the good. but it is there, i promise.

#17- I wish that i was a more outgoing person in parties and large social situations
where i don't know a lot of people. But i'm not. And its not just a comfort level thing. I get actual anxiety over being somewhere where i don't know a lot of the people. i'm working on it, i'm better in small groups. But it is how I am, and there is nothing wrong with it.

#18- I really do have a good older sister. who is a good older sister when she wants to be. And at the end of the day, i know she would be there if i needed her.

#19- yes, you can cut yourself tying balloons. and yes it hurts.

#20- sometimes taking the bus isn't a bad thing.

#21- always double check the juice you are buying, or else you go home with the wrong stuff and stiff have to drink it.

#22- baby your car, always listen for new sounds, and you should be able to keep it running. Even when it is literally rusting away on you.

#23- find joy in the small and simple things. Because then the small bad things don't seem as big. And the big good things are even greater.

#24- love DOES exist. you will NEVER be able to convince me otherwise. I see it everyday. and i feel it everyday. It is everywhere, look for it.

#25- there are a lot more simple truths. learn them. remember them. apply them. they are fun to see.

water glass.

yeah.
I try to post happy posts and I try to be a happy person. But today was the day i had time to blog and remembered to.

and yesterday was a day full of blows to the self-esteem.

apart they would all basically be small and wouldn't have really bothered me. but when all of them hit at once, they hurt.

and i spend the night curled up in a ball crying myself to sleep wishing that i could just be this or that. that i could change this or that. wishing i was somebody else.

and now its gotten really stupid in the sense that i like who i am generally. This is what the everything boils down to this time.

I feel like i am an ok person. I am a good friend, if you ever need anything i'll be there for you. I like to have fun. I like to play. I like to dance. I'm not a 4.0 student, but i'm not a complete idiot either. i like to go try new things. I am a hard worker.

but i'm not the girl you would date.

because i'm not enough. I am a great friend to have. I'll listen to all you girl problems. and i can play with the guys without them being weird because i'm a girl.

but i'm not the girl you are attracted to.

because that girl is pretty, and smart, and cute, and fun, and out going, and happy, and talented, and caring...and attractive.

and i'm not her.

and so you don't like me. i'm a great friend to have around and you wish that i could find someone too. you honestly do, not just to get rid of me, but because you know i want it.

but how many of your other friends to you introduce me to? when someone is looking for a blind date, how often do you suggest me? When you talk about wanting to set other friends up, how often do i come to mind?

i don't.

all of my friends and roommates current and old come to mind. the girl who lives upstairs comes to mind.

but i get forgotten.

because when i'm not there, guys forget that i even am alive.

when I am there, they forget that i am a girl. or they don't realize that a lot of comments they make can actually hurt a lot.

when they make certain jokes. when they are talking about other girls and one guy says "is she cute?" and the guy can't say that she is gorgeous, but she is cute. the other guys will say, very sarcastically. "she's got a great personality"

my personality is all i have.

i know when i'm not there, i'm never thought of as pretty, or cute. i'm just mandy.

if your having a bad day, or you need a shift covered. If you want help making dinner, if you need a shoulder to cry on. If you need a hug, or a distraction from life just call me up.

because i won't be doing anything.

and i'll be more than happy to help you.

because i want to see you happy. because i care about you.

and its the same thing with girls.

when you need to find another girl to double with for you date this weekend. guess what i'm not doing anything. guess what else...

your not going to think to ask me.

when your having a bad day because some jerk just hurt you. you;ll call me up, we'll make cookies, watch a disney movie, plot revenge and leave feeling a little less hurt.

but when a group of you are going to mardi gras next weekend and i'm sitting right there

you won't invite me.

you'll say "bye mandy, try to do something fun tonight."

yeah? doing what? everyone else is at mardi gras, or with their significant other.

basically people pass by me.

I'm a glass of water.

a glass of water on the counter next to sodas, and juice, and milk, and cider.

your not going to remember i'm there. you want something with some flavor and color. excitement.

but when you really need to re-hydrate. you'll remember. take a drink. and then set me back down and move on.

because thats what it feels like to be Mandy today.

and I'm not saying this the actual truth all the time. and I'm not saying anbody has ever done any of this intentionally.

but thats what it feel like today.

and it hurts.