Every now and then I am reminded of how odd I am in the worlds eyes. And I'm okay with it entirely. Let me explain what I mean.
I am 24 years old and I am a VIRGIN, *gasp* I know. I'm a virgin because I choose to be. I don't just mean I haven't had intercourse, at the extent of to much information, I don't masturbate, I've never had oral sex, I've never allowed anyone to touch my boobs or my pelvic area, except for medical professionals in professional medical situations. I have made a very thought out and conscious decision that I am waiting for marriage for that experience of physical intimacy.
If that isn't you, cool. We can still be friends, and I'm not going to think any less of you. All I care about is that you have thought about what you want and what is going to bring you the most happiness, and that it is always consenting on all sides.
Also, I don't look at porn. (and not just because I'm a girl, because more and more females are starting to view porn). I don't look at it a little bit, I don't check it out every now and then, I just don't look. Okay, disclaimer, I can't say I've never seen anything pornographic. I've had pop-ups come up before, and I've been to Vegas, where if you look down at the sidewalk, you see things you don't really always want to see. But I do not seek it out.
If you choose/have chosen to view it before, we can still be friends.
I have never consumed one drop of alcohol in my life. I know what you are thinking, "It's because you're a good little Mormon girl." While my religious beliefs to play a factor in this; the main reason I choose not to drink is because alcoholism runs in both sides of my family and I have addictive tendencies. I CHOOSE not to drink it, because if I never take the first swallow, I'll never be an alcoholic. I never want to surrender my power to an addiction of any kind.
If you drink, we can still be friends. Just promise me you won't drink and drive. It is a stupid decision not only because you put yourself in danger, but because you put other innocent people in danger.
I've also never smoked, never tried any kind of recreational drug.
I am very religious to the point where you can't separate me and my religion. This doesn't mean I go around shoving it down your throat, it means I make those beliefs part of me. I never check my religion at the door. Does this mean I am perfect? Not by an stretch of the imagination. I have so many flaws I can't possibly count them. It means I try to be my best. I try to be a little better today than I was yesterday. I try to be kind and understanding. I try to mourn with those who mourn and comfort those that stand in need of comfort. I do my best not to be judgmental. I give service.
I also have several friends that are not of my faith and I still love them with everything in me. I don't have this hidden agenda of converting them, and they aren't busy trying to convert me. We just have mutual respect for each other, and we have wonderful friendships for it.
I just don't see the pleasure and joy in the lifestyles that most people want. For example, I had a kid in class once make a statement to the effect of "isn't that the life we all want? To have money and not have to work?" and all I could think was "no". What would be the point of not working? I don't mean become a workaholic, but what do you do all day if you don't work? I don't even mean a career. But there is housework, service work, yard work. Having all play time and not working actually doesn't sound appealing to me at all. When I have to much free time, I get lazy, and tired, and depressed. I don't have the energy to play all the time. I am happiest when I've worked. I think it's because deep down we were built to be productive.
I guess I just enjoy the idea of the simple life, and maybe I was just born in the wrong generation.
This isn't the most well thought out blog post I've ever written. It's been much more a stream of consciousness, but basically. I'm weird for the world we live in...and that's okay.
I am 24 years old and I am a VIRGIN, *gasp* I know. I'm a virgin because I choose to be. I don't just mean I haven't had intercourse, at the extent of to much information, I don't masturbate, I've never had oral sex, I've never allowed anyone to touch my boobs or my pelvic area, except for medical professionals in professional medical situations. I have made a very thought out and conscious decision that I am waiting for marriage for that experience of physical intimacy.
If that isn't you, cool. We can still be friends, and I'm not going to think any less of you. All I care about is that you have thought about what you want and what is going to bring you the most happiness, and that it is always consenting on all sides.
Also, I don't look at porn. (and not just because I'm a girl, because more and more females are starting to view porn). I don't look at it a little bit, I don't check it out every now and then, I just don't look. Okay, disclaimer, I can't say I've never seen anything pornographic. I've had pop-ups come up before, and I've been to Vegas, where if you look down at the sidewalk, you see things you don't really always want to see. But I do not seek it out.
If you choose/have chosen to view it before, we can still be friends.
I have never consumed one drop of alcohol in my life. I know what you are thinking, "It's because you're a good little Mormon girl." While my religious beliefs to play a factor in this; the main reason I choose not to drink is because alcoholism runs in both sides of my family and I have addictive tendencies. I CHOOSE not to drink it, because if I never take the first swallow, I'll never be an alcoholic. I never want to surrender my power to an addiction of any kind.
If you drink, we can still be friends. Just promise me you won't drink and drive. It is a stupid decision not only because you put yourself in danger, but because you put other innocent people in danger.
I've also never smoked, never tried any kind of recreational drug.
I am very religious to the point where you can't separate me and my religion. This doesn't mean I go around shoving it down your throat, it means I make those beliefs part of me. I never check my religion at the door. Does this mean I am perfect? Not by an stretch of the imagination. I have so many flaws I can't possibly count them. It means I try to be my best. I try to be a little better today than I was yesterday. I try to be kind and understanding. I try to mourn with those who mourn and comfort those that stand in need of comfort. I do my best not to be judgmental. I give service.
I also have several friends that are not of my faith and I still love them with everything in me. I don't have this hidden agenda of converting them, and they aren't busy trying to convert me. We just have mutual respect for each other, and we have wonderful friendships for it.
I just don't see the pleasure and joy in the lifestyles that most people want. For example, I had a kid in class once make a statement to the effect of "isn't that the life we all want? To have money and not have to work?" and all I could think was "no". What would be the point of not working? I don't mean become a workaholic, but what do you do all day if you don't work? I don't even mean a career. But there is housework, service work, yard work. Having all play time and not working actually doesn't sound appealing to me at all. When I have to much free time, I get lazy, and tired, and depressed. I don't have the energy to play all the time. I am happiest when I've worked. I think it's because deep down we were built to be productive.
I guess I just enjoy the idea of the simple life, and maybe I was just born in the wrong generation.
This isn't the most well thought out blog post I've ever written. It's been much more a stream of consciousness, but basically. I'm weird for the world we live in...and that's okay.
