I think that is the best way of putting the last few weeks. I honestly have no idea where they went, whats going on with them, or how I missed them. Honestly the last thing I remember before life became blur was a bonfire i went to about 2 weeks ago...(i think) after that everything was crazy. I worked 32 hours the next week in addition to going to school. I was failing quizes and stressing out. Basically going on overload. I finally managed to talk to my managers and I shouldn't have more than 20-25 hours a week now. Which is nice because it gives me a little time to breathe.
But in addition to that I had playing tests and friend stuff and rooms and kitchens to clean and practicing to do and sleep to catch up on. I was so busy. I am busy. But then my mommy came into town. I was hoping that taking a day off school and spending time with them would make it better. It was not a relaxing weekend. we drove from logan to rexburg to tremonton to provo and everywhere in between it feels like. Anytime we were in the car for more then about five minutes i would just fall asleep because i was so beat from the week before. And did i get any homework done that weekend? of course not. So I am tired and stressed on Monday and i still have to face the week.
Thankfully i got someone to take the last half of my shift and I'm taking half of hers tomorrow. So i was able to get off work. Then I went home, changed and ran down to Mikes to give him a note to remind him to please call the temple for me on Wednesday morning so i can do baptisms. ( you have to call at 11:30 to make an appointment, and i'm in class) His roommate discovers that I've never seen sandlot. He decides this must change, so he puts it on. I'm chillin when Mike gets home from the Library and we decide to go country swing dancing. (we are both memebers so we can get in free on Mondays) So we go dance, i danced with a guy named Colby and another guy named...I think it was brian. And of course Mike, who will always give me a dance and it is much fun.
Tuesday I slept. I took the first nap i'd had in a long time because i didn't work. then i just plain wasn't productive like i should have been. But it was nice.
Then yesterday I get a surprise visit from Dani. She drove up to see me. She would have surprised me, except she got lost and couldn't find my apartment. But it was still great seeing her.
And now i get to practice and start getting ready for my really long shift. and try and face the day tomorrow and i'm hoping for a weekend off sometime when i don't ahve any obligations whatsoever and i can just sleep in. But not happening this weekend. maybe next week.
Thursday, September 30, 2010
Tuesday, September 14, 2010
Head above the water.
Some days i swear that life is going to drown me and i have no idea how i'm going to keep my head above the surface, but i always manage to somehow. Or else other people (whether they know it or not) boost me up a little.
Life is just starting to fall into place and it feels really good. I have a job, i have a major that i still think i'm crazy for choosing and yet i can't see me doing anything else, I've got amazing friends and roommates and i have an amazing family.
Lets start with the job, i know i complain about it a lot, but in all honesty its really not that bad. And one thing that is really backwards about it, it honestly will show me the good in people. Even just today.
First I was late to work, (which was not my fault. I was covering for someone, but they never told me i was covering) And my managers were very forgiving. I didn't even really get a verbal warning. Then I'm working back in the hole and someone lady comes through and pays for her meal and then says she wants to pay for the car behind her. She didn't know the person, she just wanted to buy their meal.
Then later i kid comes through, he had ordered a shake and 3 large drinks, it came to $6.45, he hand me $8 and tells me to keep the change.
I have a major that i'm crazy for choosing. I really in all honesty think i have lost all sanity in joining the music program. But I wouldn't change it for anything. For the first time in my life i can't B.S. my way through things and I am challenged but enjoy every second of it.
I've got amazing friends and roommates. I can't even describe to you the amazingness of all my friends. I don't know how i was so blessed to have all of them in my life. I feel bad naming specifics because there is no place in the world that i would list everything wonderful about all of my friends, so i'll just throw in a few recent. Kelsie had her wedding reception about two weeks ago, I was so happy for her...she would not let me leave until i had taken leftovers with me. I was sent home with three Tupperware full of food. Justin drove to the reception and won't let me pay him any gas money, which i'm totally going to find a way to pay anyway, not to mention he just picked me up one time when i wanted to leave a concert early but had left my car at a friends house. Mike you can always talk to, and i'm not gonna lie, i get slightly entertained by his nervousness at work, but he'll get the hang of it. Josh, Mike and Justin's new roommate a senior in music is always more than willing to help me learn anything i'm not understanding, he's going to save my life this year.
I also have amazing roommates, Megan is just a sweetheart who is always happy and a great R.A. She makes our apartment so decorated and she is just fun to be around. Cyri is one of the nicest people in the world. As soon as she found out my family lived out of state the first thing she said was "your welcome with my family anytime" Not to mention she has done the dishes when they had built up twice. Once today, i was going to clean them but i fell asleep on the couch, she cleaned the dishes while i was asleep.
And Maddi, my room roommate, who is very patient with a slob who's trying to learn how to be a clean person. She is basically just a sweetheart and I love her to death.
And i love my family, in all honesty, moving out made me love my family more. I love talking to dad about things and mom. I can't believe my little brother in almost 16 and my little sister is starting to drive. Its insane. I get to see my mom next week and i'm so excited, i haven't seen her since Decemebr.
So while I'm barely keeping my head above the water, i don't seem to be worried about drowning like i use to. I mean i still have major melt-downs on almost a weekly basis, but i know its all going to be ok somehow. I can't believe all the blessings i've gotten, even in the last month.
I think i notice more now because so often I do wonder how much longer I'm going to be able to keep my head above the surface, but every time I'm about to drown I have a lifeguard jump in and save me. :) Life is an interesting thing, but wonderful. Its an adventure.
Life is just starting to fall into place and it feels really good. I have a job, i have a major that i still think i'm crazy for choosing and yet i can't see me doing anything else, I've got amazing friends and roommates and i have an amazing family.
Lets start with the job, i know i complain about it a lot, but in all honesty its really not that bad. And one thing that is really backwards about it, it honestly will show me the good in people. Even just today.
First I was late to work, (which was not my fault. I was covering for someone, but they never told me i was covering) And my managers were very forgiving. I didn't even really get a verbal warning. Then I'm working back in the hole and someone lady comes through and pays for her meal and then says she wants to pay for the car behind her. She didn't know the person, she just wanted to buy their meal.
Then later i kid comes through, he had ordered a shake and 3 large drinks, it came to $6.45, he hand me $8 and tells me to keep the change.
I have a major that i'm crazy for choosing. I really in all honesty think i have lost all sanity in joining the music program. But I wouldn't change it for anything. For the first time in my life i can't B.S. my way through things and I am challenged but enjoy every second of it.
I've got amazing friends and roommates. I can't even describe to you the amazingness of all my friends. I don't know how i was so blessed to have all of them in my life. I feel bad naming specifics because there is no place in the world that i would list everything wonderful about all of my friends, so i'll just throw in a few recent. Kelsie had her wedding reception about two weeks ago, I was so happy for her...she would not let me leave until i had taken leftovers with me. I was sent home with three Tupperware full of food. Justin drove to the reception and won't let me pay him any gas money, which i'm totally going to find a way to pay anyway, not to mention he just picked me up one time when i wanted to leave a concert early but had left my car at a friends house. Mike you can always talk to, and i'm not gonna lie, i get slightly entertained by his nervousness at work, but he'll get the hang of it. Josh, Mike and Justin's new roommate a senior in music is always more than willing to help me learn anything i'm not understanding, he's going to save my life this year.
I also have amazing roommates, Megan is just a sweetheart who is always happy and a great R.A. She makes our apartment so decorated and she is just fun to be around. Cyri is one of the nicest people in the world. As soon as she found out my family lived out of state the first thing she said was "your welcome with my family anytime" Not to mention she has done the dishes when they had built up twice. Once today, i was going to clean them but i fell asleep on the couch, she cleaned the dishes while i was asleep.
And Maddi, my room roommate, who is very patient with a slob who's trying to learn how to be a clean person. She is basically just a sweetheart and I love her to death.
And i love my family, in all honesty, moving out made me love my family more. I love talking to dad about things and mom. I can't believe my little brother in almost 16 and my little sister is starting to drive. Its insane. I get to see my mom next week and i'm so excited, i haven't seen her since Decemebr.
So while I'm barely keeping my head above the water, i don't seem to be worried about drowning like i use to. I mean i still have major melt-downs on almost a weekly basis, but i know its all going to be ok somehow. I can't believe all the blessings i've gotten, even in the last month.
I think i notice more now because so often I do wonder how much longer I'm going to be able to keep my head above the surface, but every time I'm about to drown I have a lifeguard jump in and save me. :) Life is an interesting thing, but wonderful. Its an adventure.
Thursday, September 9, 2010
Just real quick
So i have about 25 minutes before my first piano lesson of the semester and I thought i would try and type up a short blog real quick considering i haven't done so in the last little while.
I am almost done with week two of my Sophmore year of college, and week two in the music program. I am officially INSANE for wanting to join the music program. And yet I'm excited for the program i don't even know if I'm going to pass. Love the new voice teacher, just going to throw that one out there. And I'm excited to start training. I have no idea how i'm going to survive aural skills and Music theory, but i guess thats when i've made friends with people who are upper level music majors and are literally going to save me. (for any typos, please forgive me, i'm using a computer on campus and the keyboard is really weird and randomly skipping letters.)
I still be working at Mickey D's and Mike just got hired on, he started yesterday, funny part of the story... I ended up training him for the first hour. I was covering an hour of a girls shift and about ten minutes before Mike is suppose to show up for training Brandi (my manager) comes to me and says that i'm training Mike until Andria gets there. I don't know how to train people. But i apparently didn't do to bad. It was after i got off work that all the stress of life hit me. Like how i didn't have book i needed, i was behind on assignments, i had to work, i was having money worries...ya know all the typical college stuff you get to deal with being a young adult. I'm on the phone with my mom trying to calm myself down and its not working so i decide that i need to do something for someone else. Except that none of my roommates are home...so who else do i know around here. I first think of Mike and Justin (because i spend half my life with them anyway) But Mike was at work, but i was guessing that Justin was home. So I send him a text asking if he'd eaten yet and if not if could i come make him dinner? (what boy is going to turn down free food that he doesn't have to cook?) So i go over and start making spaghetti. It was what i had the stuff for. Justin, being the great guy he is, kept trying to help me make dinner. I think he finally caught on that i needed to do it for him to de-stress, so he let me finish everything.
Just as dinner is about to be ready Ryan gets home, so I tell him that he should have some dinner. He said he only would i ate some too. Which i was planning on, just after everyone else had eaten. So its finished up and we sit down to eat spaghetti, veggies and garlic bread (really bland garlic bread that i failed at making. but they ate it anyway.) For some reason though, i still wasn't quite as un-stressed as i wanted to be. so I started washing all the dishes by hand. Then Josh came home, he didn't want any spaghetti but he was fun to watch drink coffee. He has a little tray and everything, its fun. Then Mike got home and he finished off the spaghetti, about the time i started finishing up the dishes is when i finally wasn't stressing anymore. Which is good, i now have a plan and a focus and i'm ok with life now. So it all worked out.
Moral of the story, life is slightly chaotic, way busy, a tiny bit stressful...but good. I've got friends who will let me be weird and randomly make dinner for them, i've got a job, even if it doesn't pay much. I'm getting an education and i'm in a major thats going to kick me in the butt...wich i think i need.
Life is so much about perspective and I've decided I'm going to tech myself to look on the brighter side, even when it starts sucking.
"Life is quite absurd, and deaths the final word. we mucst always facew the curtain with a bow...always look on the bright side of life."
little bit of spamalot to finish things off.
I am almost done with week two of my Sophmore year of college, and week two in the music program. I am officially INSANE for wanting to join the music program. And yet I'm excited for the program i don't even know if I'm going to pass. Love the new voice teacher, just going to throw that one out there. And I'm excited to start training. I have no idea how i'm going to survive aural skills and Music theory, but i guess thats when i've made friends with people who are upper level music majors and are literally going to save me. (for any typos, please forgive me, i'm using a computer on campus and the keyboard is really weird and randomly skipping letters.)
I still be working at Mickey D's and Mike just got hired on, he started yesterday, funny part of the story... I ended up training him for the first hour. I was covering an hour of a girls shift and about ten minutes before Mike is suppose to show up for training Brandi (my manager) comes to me and says that i'm training Mike until Andria gets there. I don't know how to train people. But i apparently didn't do to bad. It was after i got off work that all the stress of life hit me. Like how i didn't have book i needed, i was behind on assignments, i had to work, i was having money worries...ya know all the typical college stuff you get to deal with being a young adult. I'm on the phone with my mom trying to calm myself down and its not working so i decide that i need to do something for someone else. Except that none of my roommates are home...so who else do i know around here. I first think of Mike and Justin (because i spend half my life with them anyway) But Mike was at work, but i was guessing that Justin was home. So I send him a text asking if he'd eaten yet and if not if could i come make him dinner? (what boy is going to turn down free food that he doesn't have to cook?) So i go over and start making spaghetti. It was what i had the stuff for. Justin, being the great guy he is, kept trying to help me make dinner. I think he finally caught on that i needed to do it for him to de-stress, so he let me finish everything.
Just as dinner is about to be ready Ryan gets home, so I tell him that he should have some dinner. He said he only would i ate some too. Which i was planning on, just after everyone else had eaten. So its finished up and we sit down to eat spaghetti, veggies and garlic bread (really bland garlic bread that i failed at making. but they ate it anyway.) For some reason though, i still wasn't quite as un-stressed as i wanted to be. so I started washing all the dishes by hand. Then Josh came home, he didn't want any spaghetti but he was fun to watch drink coffee. He has a little tray and everything, its fun. Then Mike got home and he finished off the spaghetti, about the time i started finishing up the dishes is when i finally wasn't stressing anymore. Which is good, i now have a plan and a focus and i'm ok with life now. So it all worked out.
Moral of the story, life is slightly chaotic, way busy, a tiny bit stressful...but good. I've got friends who will let me be weird and randomly make dinner for them, i've got a job, even if it doesn't pay much. I'm getting an education and i'm in a major thats going to kick me in the butt...wich i think i need.
Life is so much about perspective and I've decided I'm going to tech myself to look on the brighter side, even when it starts sucking.
"Life is quite absurd, and deaths the final word. we mucst always facew the curtain with a bow...always look on the bright side of life."
little bit of spamalot to finish things off.
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