Head above the water.

Some days i swear that life is going to drown me and i have no idea how i'm going to keep my head above the surface, but i always manage to somehow. Or else other people (whether they know it or not) boost me up a little.
Life is just starting to fall into place and it feels really good. I have a job, i have a major that i still think i'm crazy for choosing and yet i can't see me doing anything else, I've got amazing friends and roommates and i have an amazing family.
Lets start with the job, i know i complain about it a lot, but in all honesty its really not that bad. And one thing that is really backwards about it, it honestly will show me the good in people. Even just today.
First I was late to work, (which was not my fault. I was covering for someone, but they never told me i was covering) And my managers were very forgiving. I didn't even really get a verbal warning. Then I'm working back in the hole and someone lady comes through and pays for her meal and then says she wants to pay for the car behind her. She didn't know the person, she just wanted to buy their meal.
Then later i kid comes through, he had ordered a shake and 3 large drinks, it came to $6.45, he hand me $8 and tells me to keep the change.
I have a major that i'm crazy for choosing. I really in all honesty think i have lost all sanity in joining the music program. But I wouldn't change it for anything. For the first time in my life i can't B.S. my way through things and I am challenged but enjoy every second of it.
I've got amazing friends and roommates. I can't even describe to you the amazingness of all my friends. I don't know how i was so blessed to have all of them in my life. I feel bad naming specifics because there is no place in the world that i would list everything wonderful about all of my friends, so i'll just throw in a few recent. Kelsie had her wedding reception about two weeks ago, I was so happy for her...she would not let me leave until i had taken leftovers with me. I was sent home with three Tupperware full of food. Justin drove to the reception and won't let me pay him any gas money, which i'm totally going to find a way to pay anyway, not to mention he just picked me up one time when i wanted to leave a concert early but had left my car at a friends house. Mike you can always talk to, and i'm not gonna lie, i get slightly entertained by his nervousness at work, but he'll get the hang of it. Josh, Mike and Justin's new roommate a senior in music is always more than willing to help me learn anything i'm not understanding, he's going to save my life this year.
I also have amazing roommates, Megan is just a sweetheart who is always happy and a great R.A. She makes our apartment so decorated and she is just fun to be around. Cyri is one of the nicest people in the world. As soon as she found out my family lived out of state the first thing she said was "your welcome with my family anytime" Not to mention she has done the dishes when they had built up twice. Once today, i was going to clean them but i fell asleep on the couch, she cleaned the dishes while i was asleep.
And Maddi, my room roommate, who is very patient with a slob who's trying to learn how to be a clean person. She is basically just a sweetheart and I love her to death.
And i love my family, in all honesty, moving out made me love my family more. I love talking to dad about things and mom. I can't believe my little brother in almost 16 and my little sister is starting to drive. Its insane. I get to see my mom next week and i'm so excited, i haven't seen her since Decemebr.
So while I'm barely keeping my head above the water, i don't seem to be worried about drowning like i use to. I mean i still have major melt-downs on almost a weekly basis, but i know its all going to be ok somehow. I can't believe all the blessings i've gotten, even in the last month.
I think i notice more now because so often I do wonder how much longer I'm going to be able to keep my head above the surface, but every time I'm about to drown I have a lifeguard jump in and save me. :) Life is an interesting thing, but wonderful. Its an adventure.