thoughts

Sometimes, i really miss band. I went to a wind symphony concert last night and I remembered how much fun i use to have in band. I think my problem with life is i love to many things, i don't know how to get good at any of them.

I've played, oboe, cymbals, cowbell, violin, minimal piano and guitar, i sing, i've done theatre, i danced when i was younger. And i wasn't terrible at any of them. I wasn't always good, but i was never bad.

I wish there was a way to just combine all the things I've learned into a job of some kind. I believe that music and theatre will change the world. They speak to us in ways nothing else can.

I have had so much random experience, I can accomplish a lot of things, but I have no idea how to present to the world that I can do these things. I really like the idea of combining communications and music into a major, but I don't know how to do it. grrr.

i'm also really tired right now as I'm writing this, so it's a little over the place. I've been so tired the last week or so and the last 2 days i've had awesome headaches. i hate headaches.

but i'm getting my laundry done right now, thats a good thing...right?