Human Again

Well after a night of almost constant sleep and a three hour unconscious-like nap I feel almost human again today. I walked into work bright and early yesterday morning and my manager says "hi Amanda." I reply with an incredibly raspy "morning" She goes "your sick." I say "no, i don't have time to be sick." But 2 cups of hot apple cider and many cups of nasty hot lemon water and five hours later i ask if there is anyway I can go home early. So my lovely managers call Hailey in for the last hour of my shift. I go home via Mike and Justins so I can pick up a pan I left at there place a few nights ago. I'm walking in as Mike is walking out, he asks if I got off work early, I told him they called Hailey in for me.
"are you not feeling good?" (Mike)
"I kinda want to die right now." (me.)
"what time did you go to bed last night?" (he had kicked me out at 9:30 the night before because i had to get up at six the next morning for work.)
"I went to bed at 10. I couldn't sleep last night."
sum up that part of the story. I also mentions how i've been living on soup and cider for two days.
"do you need anymore cider?" (Mike.)
"no, i think i still have another box."(me.)
he then tells me to go home and get some rest, which i planned on doing. But first i go in and get my pan. Justin asks if I'm ok, i tell him i want to die. He asks if I need anymore cider. (these boys take good care of me.) I just grab my pan, check my e-mail real quick because his internet was on. Then i go home. I call grandma because she was in Logan and had some stuff for me. She meets me at my place and has tomato juice and cans of soup and some frozen orange juice and some medicine and amongst other things. I then went inside. Made me some soup. and crashed for three hours on my bed. But when I woke up i didn't have a fever anymore.
and now we are to today. I feel almost human again. which is awesome. Now i'll probably crash later, because i tend to do that when i'm sick. But right now i'm enjoying feeling almost human.
But before my being sick escapade life was still crazy as always. I went to Brigham twice last week to train for our new POS system at McDonalds. I missed my store. Brigham was so slow. (as in they worked really slow) i was going nuts. And now this week i work a ton because i have to train everybody on the new system. me and katie both do. Didn't think about that when I agreed to go train. Oh well. And now that i've survived at least half of my mid-terms. Life is starting to make some semblance of sense and starting to fall into some pattern of order, now granted lets be honest, it'll probably fall apart again in two weeks, but I can enjoy it now right?
I just decided i have a lot on my mind lately. (and by a lot I mean one major thing) But i can't really talk about it here because it involves other people business that isn't mine to talk about. But it makes me want to figure things out for them, but I can't do that. Life is just a messed up crazy thing. But I've learned we all have our own issues. And other people can't fix them for us. They maybe can help point us in a general direction, but we have to figure out whats going to work best for us. And then people who care about us have to watch. Its an interesting thing life.