Please don't stop the music.

I know I've posted about music before, especially since when I started this blog 3 years ago, I was a music major.

But I've been thinking a lot about music lately.

Because I miss it.

I mean, I'm back in Chorale, which is better than nothing. And I'm humbled to admit that stepping down to Chorale after Chambers is really really hard.

But music just isn't in my life like it use to be.

And it makes me sad.

I don't learn knew songs anymore. I'm not exploring different styles. I'm not practicing my guitar and trying to get better.

I've accepted my mediocrity.

I want to fill my life with music again.

Music is how I feel. It's how I process emotions.

I think that's why it has left me a little.

Last year, I turned emotions off. Turning them back on is hard and scary.

Music brings them out in me.

I guess I'm saying, I need the music back. I need to face the fears. I need to expand and create. I need to practice and become. I need to pretend like I'm much better than I am.

I want the music back.